life a mfer. one day you cruising along just living life best you can then your stubborn 39 year old wife finally gets to point she has to mention she been having this bleeding problem she only brought up cause she had lost so much blood she couldn't function properly! next thing ya know you being told words like late stage cancer and odds i damn sure wouldn't bet! next 13 months a freaking blur. sometimes we get good news but it always followed w something even worse!! we went from 1 hospital visit every month or so to now it more like 2 weeks out of every month, seems like the radiation did more harm to her than the cancer. i'd tell anyone who ever has to go thru this to think long and hard bout the radiation, there plenty of other options you could try before radiation!! it didn't help her and caused her to have a hole in her bladder and colon, so now she has tubes in her kidneys. i feel like they left out many the potential side effects! and again chemo and immuno therapy did much more good than the radiation! i know everyone different and they still don't know what best for cancer or that individual but her life be much easier had she not done the radiation so please if that happens to you or loved one really look into before agreeing to radiation!!
now we gonna go wit this new experimental shit, apparently had potential for bad side effects to the eyes, she made it clear to dr if she goes blind that it, and i don't blame her! we felt better after the consultations last few days, not like a thing where she instantly would go blind, long as we do all the post and pre treatment care it should be fine and the success rate for her kind of cancer been high w this so we can only hope!
anyways sorry to be a bummer just felt like getting off my chest and didn't want to say all that to her, gotta put on strong front for my baby! i do always tell her the life insurance will help me cope!!! lmao
