DOUBLEUP4LIFE
Proud Member of Bills Mafia
Not to compare misery but think we have taken breast cancer in heartbeat. The cirvical been no fun but you right it isn’t the cancer it the fucking treatments, all her recent issues have been the treatments destroying her insides. They actually doing a good job on the cancer just dunno she gonna be able to live thru all the other things treatments have caused. Appreciate you and the others who have reached out it means a lot, our thoughts w ya’ll as well.
It really up to her right now she back home and at 1st she would let me help her up then she can get around w Walker. Then I trust her and she turns into a total junkie. I know she’s in pain but I also know she cares way more bout just getting high she can and not care if she laying in filth I have to clean. I told her I can’t fucking do if, she will be in assisted living if all she wants is to be a junkie ass zombie after hearing best news we have got in a year! I actually got clean while she was in hospital and been wanting that so bad for so long now. I have no interested laying around and running thru her drugs then spending all her money on steer drugs do when she dies lucky for her I’ll be a laid out junkie and have to go back Thu a month of misery which I have no intention of doing again. I’m fine giving her her prescribed shit and maybe I take one here anc there (lol, I’m mo angel) but that dint make me junkie I have good control when she not pushing me. Anyways now she giving me a bunch of crying guilt trips but I’ve been manipulated by here more than enough over the years I know what it looks like and she doesn’t know I just let her.
I love her more than anything, obviously I been going thru this 2 years and I will another however long but not if she just wants to be a zombie and I’m here slave
Brother , I'm always here for whatever you need to talk about ..Zero judgements or anything , sometimes talking to someone who doesn't know you personally is helpful ..You're a very strong man to be able to even type out these words, going through all these things in real time is often too much for even the most resilient super hero ...Message me whenever brother , I'll send you my cell or whatever ..MUCH RESPECT