She fucking dying man, I think she done w chemo so dunno how long she go but obviously the cancer gonna kill her at some point. I’m not rooting for that but it been nice to get it over with in 2024! Lol. Now it bleeds into it 3rd year of sucking! Oh well, there nothing I can do and the chemo just making her too sick. I’d rather she felt better for a few months amd die then just keep doing chemo till it kills her and she sick and miserable whole time. Rather last memories not just being her nurse: be nice to get to take her to do some things she never got to do, we didn’t meet till after I was done running around country. I’d like to take her to see ocean since she never has and wants to. Maybe without chemo she feel up to trying to do some things; I know if she sticks with the 4th round of experimental bull shit she just gonna be super sick till the end.