Your priorities are in order
I mean I wasn’t even sure I could do this a few weeks ago, I’ve had some friends die one way or another like most have, some good friends parents, but I never been so close to anyone and have to watch them slowly dying w cancer. It fucking sucks, sometimes I think she and myself been better off if they just give her enough drugs to end it (not sure if they even have enough, she already on enough shit to kill a horse! Lol, that my girl!) she actually asked one the nurses one night, but then we have a day like yesterday and while it kinda short before she goes back to sleep I’m grateful for those times. I’ve felt guilty there been a few days I’ve skipped lately, not cause gambling or anything but just cause I need the emotional break I’m fucking spent sometimes. My mom or her sister almost always go any day I miss tho and if she up and talking they let me know and I’ll go but if she just asleep I’ll wait til next day, still hard to think she sometimes wakes up and alone even tho most the nurses are very good to her and treat her really really well, several of them like her a lot but it not same.
The ones that pissed me off caused me to have a meeting w board, like dr, director, nurse, counselor, way more than I realized I was getting myself into! lol. I wouldn’t snitch anyone out but I made it clear there were a few not doing their fucking Jobs, or tried telling me what I can or can’t give her or just act snotty bout it. I just told them she my mfin wife and I’m watching her die whenever she wants or ask for I’m giving it to her! And that I was leaving things I know she likes so anytime she calls for them I don’t want the 1st thing to be they just drug her up to be left alone, I understand she needs drugs but I also know anytime I go she smashes a smoothie then lots of water and I can tell who not asking her if she wants stuff. She will still eat apple sauce, yogurt, pudding sometimes but you have to ask her, that mostly all she ate last year at home other than few rare times she wanted some real food, I know she past that point but they still need to ask her if she wants any that stuff or smoothies I leave. It not even about trying to keep her alive I just want her to be as comfortable and happy as she can. I guess she has outlasted most patients that go to this place, I told them she a tough bitch it part the reason I married her!!!
Anyways I made coffee and ate a gummy but for moment I’m not in capping mood and I’m still pretty pissed duke, the one team I thought could beat gators lost!! I I was prob gonna bet

small anyways but talked bout that game all thru Houston apparently mentally breaking Duke and cost me a ton of parlays and I live bey Duke tt ov 67.5-68.5-69.5., Well after I hit those numbers i saw 74-75 thought I was golden and I don’t remember specifics cause I was stoned but seems like they didn’t score forever!! Past up layups to waste time then missed the fucking free throws!!! They shoulda easily cashed those team totals abd won Fuckinh Game!!! That 2x now I pissed away mlb winnings on this fucking tourney!!! And now 2marro game sucks I was so looking forward to gators giving Duke all they wanted while everyone but Duke, dunno if they woulda won, I tbink they could have And for sure cover after Duke money jacked up line!!!bbut now it a totally different Game, ppl will be split but lot jumping back ti gators and the game won’t be shit compared to what puke:gators woulda been!!
Needless to say I need to chill and watch movie, gonna stay w Theresa for ar least few hours today, I havnt deceived if I cap the baseball card, prob not entirely but I’m sure I’ll run thru it in few hours and see if I like anything before I go.